still separated, in limbo, still hopeful

[newmama]

I made a new single mom friend!!!! YAY! Potentially 3, but one I clicked with wants to hang out on Saturday!

I also got some winks on match and one guy looks pretty cute and nice. So I want to reply back and will when I am done with this post.

Funny- I sent a text confirming this weekend with WH because it is Mother's Day. I said that Sat still works if he returns S on Sunday at 12. He said fine. The truth is that the only reason I was asking at 10:15 at night is because I was making plans for the weekend, haha! And he replied within 30 seconds-

CW- I read your mind before I read your post- what I mean is after I posted I thought to myself- but the WASs will be looking for consistency.

SO I did clean the house up (saving mopping and putting away laundry for tomorrow but no clutter and clean kitchen) and I wasn't all dolled up but still had my hair done, make up, attractive clothes when he arrived.

The changes are permanent- I do like a clean house and really do want to keep it up, not just for a husband but for me and my son!
And it does feel a lot better confidence wise (although not realxed body wise) to look put together versus wearing a pony tail with jeans and a T-shirt.

But I peeked on mb28's thread and Allen made a good point about not acting too happy all the time when the spouse wants a divorce because it gets them off the hook so to speak. I think he suggested being "indifferent" (too lazy to go and copy and paste his exact words).

This is how I am trying to act. Even when I send a text message (about pick up or drop off) I am not using !s. He is using them half the time. lol- text messages have tones,too!

Ok and the spa party- I almost signed up for a 6 month rip off membership to get microderm abrasion done. But my common sense kicked in and I didn't! PHEW! I am sure that I come across as so looks oriented on this thing, but truthfully have not been so girly or vain ever before this affair. I swear, I have forehead wrinkles that WERE NOT THERE A YEAR AGO!!! I am not lying! And since I don't have a personal trainer adn don't want to spend hours in the gym, I will make the most of the body I was given (lose some weight but will still be flabby) and must learn how to accentuate what I got! So if a stylish hairdo, make up and cute clothes do it, then so be it!

On the hobbies side- wow, one of the women said she signed up with a hiking group and a biking group on meetup and met some cute men there. I told her- unfortunately, I like to do those things but am not an intense hiker or biker so I shied away because it must be for the serious. She said no, she was honest when she signed up and rated her skill level low. There was a range and she still met guys! This gives me a boost- I should take another look at the hobbies groups!