OK, well another day of insecurity has me bursting with joy! I have had exactly $1.05 in my checking account for about a week. I've been living off $30 cash and frugalizing (not a word) every penny of it, until today.

First I called the government to see what is the holdup on my money. They apparently never received my fax from April 9th (of which I, thankfully, kept the confirmation number). Otherwise, I'd be up a creek right now.

Ya know the sad part about this is, I told my H a month ago, that he can either give me the money, or he can give it to the attorneys. He said, "I'll take my chances." What can you say about a person like that?

AND, Hallalulia! I sold the H's guns for the price I needed. I promptly took the money down to the attorney's office and paid my overdue fees. I wrote her a note which said, "Please use this down payment only for your preparation and, hopefully, the temporary support hearing."

If I'm lucky, or walking on the right path with the Holy Spirit, the judge will see the H's error of his ways and make a positive mandate. Ya know the sad part about this whole thing is, I told my H about a month ago that he can either give me the money or keep giving it to the attorneys. He said, "I'll take my chances." What can ya say about a person like that. He's hurting me so much.

painful-ridden poet