My Life and Husband's MLC

[DestinyUnknown]

Well I have started a new thread as the old one was pretty lengthy and considering the state of my R at this point, it was time to start fresh for several reasons.

My H has deployed to training at the base in SC. From there, he travels to Kuwait and then on to Afghanistan. I am somewhat surprised that I have not been overly consumed with thoughts of him since he left. I have been very dark on the boards over the last 3 weeks because of my H's pending departure, pressure from work, and just feelings of alienation imposed by myself.

I am attempting to move forward "positively" and with a focus on myself (something you have all counseled me on for months). However, the H sometimes can make this very difficult. Yesterday morning, in an email to me he accused me of ignoring him because I had not responded to his emails or voice messages. He called last night and he seemed very caring and somewhat sad. I am not being pulled back in, but his behavior was very different than he has been in the last few months. He called again tonight, but I was working out. He

I am sure being deployed just has him feeling very alone especially when he is not really sure what to expect when he arrives in Afghanistan. In that respect, I am also very concerned.

I hope everyone else is having a good evening. I will continue to keep up this post.