feel like giving up - pt 2

[luvless]

I'm so freaking pissed. I think this is the most angry I've felt in a very long time.

I just got off the phone with my atty and my alimony/support numbers went down some. I guess this was before he talked to the enemy's atty. They are shooting for the low number (which XH does Not make!) he makes much much more...ugh he's such a sleezeball. I cannot possibly sustain 3 teenagers and a mortgage.

I fail to understand why I am the one being f*cked here. I gave up my life for my X husband and my 3 kids and this is my payback? I feel like just telling XH to come get the kids and take care of them. He'll throw me scraps while he sits on thousands a month - ONE person he has to feed and I have to feed and clothe 4! Somewhere the law forgets REALITY.

Can you tell I'm mad?...fuming.