I've talked to him a few times & it just doesn't seem like anything changes. I always feel like I'm having to live up to some sort of expectations so that he won't leave again.

A thought just came to me. Maybe I feel like he just doesn't have any respect for me anymore. If that's the case, how do I get this respect back?

Then I think well maybe everything is "fine" & I still just am expecting the other shoe to drop. I'm always expecting him to cheat again or be unhappy again.

Just thinking out loud.

Me: 38
H: 35
S4, S5, S10
Bomb 01/07
Wanted D - nothing would change his mind
Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb
Piecing 04/07
Deployed for a year 05/07
Still Piecing 2010
M 11 yrs 05/10