Closing could be as soon as Thursday, if X is available.
Great news--they can do it right at my house. (MY house! hear that??) And THEY write out the check to X (a big chunk coming from mortgage, and a big chunk from my savings) So I write out a check to the mortgage company, not to X! Don't know why that feels like a relief, but it does,
So--yeah. Close the house, close the bank, close out 23 years of my life.
I still drive and cry. But I also find myself laughing a little bit now and then.
but I would still give anything for a chance to press the "undo" button.
I still drive and cry. But I also find myself laughing a little bit now and then. but I would still give anything for a chance to press the "undo" button.
Yep.
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
I still drive and cry. But I also find myself laughing a little bit now and then. but I would still give anything for a chance to press the "undo" button.
Yep.
Hear hear.
Reality is that which, if you don't believe in it, doesn't go away.
Ummm...I will confess that the weekend was made more than tolerable by umm...."keeping company" with my Town Meeting Escort. He seems happy to help me heal in all sorts of ways, if you get my drift. So I had lots of distraction, at least!
Ok, hold up! How did I miss this little item in my catch up replies?? Way to go Aver!! Nice job! Keep us updated if anything develops...
I'm sure it's a relief - that's how it should be. The 3rd parties handling the business stuff. I'm glad.
Congratulations on closing! I know - it's with mixed feelings. Like me moving. I'll miss the deer in our beautiful back yard.
I don't know if it should be an undo as much as a 2nd chance? For us it should be a 1st chance! I know what you mean. (((Aver))))
Hope all goes well w the house stuff, and your C. Forgive me if I'm MIA this weekend. I'll try to ck in, maybe on my blackberry. Thinking of you ((((hugs)))))
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Ummm...I will confess that the weekend was made more than tolerable by umm...."keeping company" with my Town Meeting Escort. He seems happy to help me heal in all sorts of ways, if you get my drift. So I had lots of distraction, at least!
Ok, hold up! How did I miss this little item in my catch up replies?? Way to go Aver!! Nice job! Keep us updated if anything develops...
Thanks, all, for your good wishes. They definitely helped.
Signed a bunch of papers in the comfort of MY own home.
Tore my heart out to read the "Quitclaim." Howled and wailed for a time after the lawyer left.
Then--I had my therapist, which was good. Then, to the bar with friends, which was good. Then, a ten mile run this am, which was good. Then, closed the joint bank account. Which hurt, too, but it is what it is.
Didn't sleep well--tried to go to sleep without the anti-a meds. Woke up from a tossing turning dream/nightmare about HER!! going back on the meds tonight! But my therapist did say that drinking/drugging myself so much wasn't allowing for REM/dream state, and that is part of the healing. Christ, if I have to let HER or X into my dreams to get past this...well, when I woke up in the sweaty tangle, I took an anti-a to get back to sleep. So I guess that is always an option.
Thanks again for checking in. I'll keep you posted.
