Yes, I owned that was my overreaction, and I also said why I felt slipping in that he was in the city early in the morning on a Sunday morning may have been bait. Maybe not. either way, I"m having a really hard time and I acknowledge it's my issue.
Can I just admit again I'm horrible at all this. I miss him so terribly and not handling the rejection at all. Can I also just admit I did what I'm not supposed to do and got into trying to convince him last night to save our marriage again. Of course it didn't work and I feel worse. I am sorry I've let you all down.
I tried for so many months to be cool and detached, with some success and it hasn't worked. So I guess I felt desperate and like I can't go on pretending that I"m upbeat .... I know I should detach and I know I"m doing terrible.
