still separated, in limbo, still hopeful

[newmama]

maybe it's placebo effect but I just started my wellbutrin today. Whoa- I can see clearly now, the rain is gone! I mean it was like I was in a haze and I feel alert and care free! But the first day? Come on....it can't work that fast right? I know better.

Maybe it is also the combination of the weight being lifted from NC with WH.

Last night around 10:30 I was so mad but I forgot to verify where we were exchanging S today. I was mad because it meant I had to ask him! I sent a text but stated it like I was verifying not asking his permission: "Just making sure that you pick up S at the house on Tuesdays, correct?" He replied instantly with yes.

Then today he texts me to ask if I wanted to meet him somewhere else if S and I were going to be out and about. Ummm...no...I told him the house so I will stick to the plan! I just replied with "thanks for asking but we will be home. You will be feeding him dinner over there, correct?" I wanted it to be known that he will literally pick him up (I will have his bag ready) and he might have to use the bathroom (prostate issue-had it before slut). BUt I want him out. No lingering!!!!

So I wonder if he is going to keep asking me about the schedule.Testing?

The annoying thing is that I have to double check about this weekend since it is Mother's Day. I find these things annoying because if we had it all figured out, then it would be in writing and there would be no need to communicate about it. But I can also just wait and ask, no, "verify" with him tomorrow.