The journey begins

[ClingingToHope]

Urghh. I don't know why it's continuing to bother me. D11 was telling me about this cool house STBXW looked at. She really likes it.

I tried to tell D11 I really didn't want to hear about it. But she wanted to tell me about it because it's the kind of house she wants to buy when she grows up because she's never going to live in an apartment.

I kind of smiled, but it was more of a gritting of the teeth.

I'm in a f*ck*ng apartment because for 15 years STBXW never saw a dress or pair of shoes that she just had to have today and I spent that time figuring out a way to make it happen.

So now I'm buried in mountains of debt and living on a tight budget while she's daydreaming of houses even though her credit will be shot, she'll have five or six max credit cards and no down payment.

Unless her mom magically conjures a bunch of money for her, she's going to have to face reality and rent something.

It shouldn't bother me. Lord knows I have enough to worry about on my own, but right now I'm really p*ss*d off.