help some advice plse..have i finished it for good

[JacT]

Lees glad your ok and have managed to get the cottage ready.Its another hurdle you have come up against and got over..well done although I am sure it doesnt feel like it.
Glad you enjoyed the reading.It at least puts into perspective what goes through the was mind.
I had a counselling session today and the c said that I have to stop beating myself up focusing on what I didnt do for my H given the scale of his issues.
I am not sure whether I want him to coming knocking because I want to him to confirm our 28 years together wasnt a lie, I want to say..told you it would end in tears,I love him and want him back or some of it all.
I cant believe he has not even txt to ask how the girls are..he was a great dad.
Guess for time being I am just going to leave it be and continue with my C and looking after me.
I also want to get back to work.Youve had all that c*** to deal with.There is no-one knows what this is like..a living hell, unless you go through it.Sorry your getting hassle from someone who clearly lacks in emotional intelligence!
Thanks for asking.Off to walk the dogs and settle down for vampire diaries..hope your eating better??