I am going to try my darn hardest to act as if. He has been reaching out a bit more the past two days... i am taking it that he likes me in his life as his friend and is trying to make things easier for when the baby comes...
Do i think he will feel something... Absolutely! I am so confident in saying that. Strange, but i am. Doesnt mean he will act on it or do anything about it. He has told me that he misses us, and wishes he had done things differently when he started to feel distant in our M and wishes we had gone to counseling. But he will have to have really strong feelings over a great period of time for him to think about coming back...
I hope that in the end we both are happy and comfortable and have a good time planning for the baby. And that is the only thing I want... for now! I have replaced his name on my phone with DETACH, to serve as a reminder that, it is what I am supposed to be doing and feeling. I need to let H go through his journey of whatever it is he is going through... and I have no control over his feelings.
My Mantra Baby steps... one day at a time... no expectations... detach... Act as if... Love from a distance... Be the best you... for yourself...
