Not Sure Where I Am

[dday101798]

What do I think? Two things:

One, I reminded myself of a couple of sayings that kept me sane through everything and lost sight of lately, one of which applies to what my (x)W is trying to say, in her own "elliquent" way: scars remind us of where we've been, but do not dictate where we are going. And of course, the serenity prayer.

Secondly, I would write everything out first, purge your thoughts and personal injections to keep the message clear. Then deliver it verbaly, at the right moment, which for me is out of the blue, when I feel comfrotable with her demeaner.

As for forgetting everything that happened....

I at least know in the case of my (x)W, she has not. Good times or not so good times, I know it torments her. Like I said, she is ever so parinoid now that one day I'll just have had enough, give up and walk out the door. She may just be right to an extent. This time , I am watching my butt. I am buying a house solely in my name. I keep the cars, solely in my name. If and when she gets the steam to ask me as she should for re-marriage, she will sign into a pre-nup (as I asked the first time). Why? Reason one above: my scars are reminding me of where I've been.