It is clear that you are not paying attention to the advice that is being given to you.
Your behavior will not win your husband back. It will not make your life better. It will not help your son.
You can choose to change how you are acting. You can choose to talk to a doctor about getting on antidepressants, codependant behavior, and more. Every journey begins with a single step; please take that step.
Until you do, and until you show some signs that you are getting help for yourself, we are not going to be able to help you.
Me: 44, Wife: 39 M: 17 years T: 20 years Bomb on 08/25/09 1/13/10: MC started 1/28/10, 2/8/10: More bombs 8/28/10: Wife moved out No talk of D, no movement