Seriously do you like all this drama you're causing? I think you just like the attention. Your H has denied it, you have no real proof of his wanting a baby.
Do your son a favor and get checked into a clinic. YOu are doing all this to your H and us to get attention. We get it. Look, let's face it, your sitch seems bad. All of ours did. Look at the posters on here whose spouse left WHILE the LBS was pregnant! They have it much more worse off than you, but are handling things much better.
Get help. Stop bothering your H. You may not like what I'm saying here, but right now I'm more concerned about your son. Because it's obvious you've been putting your needs before his. If you weren't, then you would be getting help for your state of mind.
There are a number of free programs too that you can check out. But check them out. If you spent as much time getting treatment as you did checking his emails, you'd be in a much better place.
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Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
