Doc,
As I write, it's clear what patterns I have that need to be changed that aren't helping me or the M--fear of intimacy, fear of rejection (this is a general theme for me that goes beyond the M). These are longstanding patterns so aren't easy to change. As has been suggested, I do need more of a balance between thinking and doing.

I also have work to do on forgiving myself for the mistakes I've made in the past, and for my difficulties in changing in the ways that are needed.

CL

CL 53 W 54
M 20 yrs.
03'-09' Separation + Old Patterns + GAL
10-14' Piecing

"The Master allows things to happen. She shapes events as they come."

----Tao Te Ching