Alice - so true..I am "surviving" every hour through this..sometimes I becomes overwhelming and so sad then I feel ok (well never truly ok) but better so I am working so hard trust me...thank you for being here.
Yes, I think you'll be overwhelmed and sad for awhile, Luv. Each week will get a little easier, though, trust me. I can see how hard you're working, and it will pay off- keeping busy, relying on friends here, etc. will help you through.
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Good morning everyone...I had a rough afternoon yesterday. I felt like bursting into tears at several different moments but I composed myself. I guess after talking to my atty and hearing of Mr. Luv's atty it hit me. What do I expect huh?
Today is a very busy day for me. I am getting ready to go for a morning swim and then I have lots of work to do. I have been avoiding like the plague packing up Mr. Luv's things
I will try and get some shopping in for me and I've got some girlfriends coming over for a couple beers tonight. I'm looking forward to that.
I have a sinking feeling inside that I'm battling but I'm really appreciating everyone's support here. I know it gets hard after a while..being on the boards...like...does anyone have anything good to say? I want to get there soon.
Good for you for making plans w/your friends! I hope you can do more of that each week so you stay busy and have support around you. Packing the stuff sucks- is there anyone who can help you or would you rather do it alone? Do your crying when you need to- I think I did most of mine weeks ago even before the bomb and feel cried out now. But you have to do it at some point - get all that hysterical sobbing, completely out of control sadness out--- and then eventually you will be past that phase but still sad. Obviously, there are better or worse times to break down (I'm thinking not in front of H certainly), but if you have time to yourself or with people you trust, it's ok to let the floodgates go. You might even feel a tiny bit of relief afterwards.
I know money is tight but do you have an IC or anyone you can talk to now? Also, you sound depressed (not surprising- what's amazing is that you are still up and kicking despite everything going on)- ever looked into that to check out options? I don't mean to diagnose or sound like a pharmacy pusher, but ADs have greatly helped me- esp through this time- and others- and it might be worth looking into, even just short term.
((((Luv))))
take care of you--
Alice
When the men on the chessboard Get up and tell you where to go; And you've just had some kind of mushroom And your mind is moving slow; Go ask Alice... I think she'll know.
