I have to go to attorney today. I am really upset about having to do this. I only slept 4 hrs and I can't think straight. I called h and told him I was going to hospital and he had to pick son up from school. He asked what hospital I knwow he doesnt care really. I said it doesnt matter I call my mother. He said I swear on my mothers life there is no baby. I don't beieve anything he says. I dont think ill go to hospital because I have that appt. and Im really tired. I said to him do you want a d, but he says he doesnt. probably because of the cost and headache.Or he doesnt want to hurt my son. I have to pretend that he is dead and try to forget about him. They say death of a spouse is easier than going through this.
