HB I am in piecing but as of late wonder if I really even belong there. My H says he wants to make the M work however every few months his fantasy OW (one-sided on his part) becomes an issue. I am starting to really feel that he only wants me there because he has nothing better so to speak. OW and I communicate when H acts in-appropriately such as trying to communicate with her about personal things outside work. He treats me well for the most part but connection is not there. he says he wants to do things like getaway weekends but doesn't follow through ect... We are both very busy but his idea of spending time together is in front of the tv at night for an hour or so. We do not do much with any one even though lately he has been into hunting more and more with friends(even though he forgot I like to hunt also). I have the gut feeling that he is attempting contact ow again(he has tried to talk to her once recently) and I am about ready to ask him to leave for my own peace. I am not willing to live like this and made that extra clear after the last big row last fall. I feel all we have been doing is cycling and I feel something needs to give. I guess I feel he has been cake-eating. He has said he just wishes and is waiting for it to go away. Still with all that i have been through I do have to say I have it a lot better than most. Just not enough for me I guess.
Don't know if I make any sense as I have been at this for so long that I don't know what I feel any more.
JAK
SORRY MAT
You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when, you can only decide how you're going to live now. ~Joan Baez
