W asked if I wanted to talk than she would listen. So this morning I told her about all the things I have realized about how I acted in our M and I apologised for alot of things. We both cried and she thanked me for my apology and said she was happy I realized those things but she was still too hurt to change her mind. She said it's over and she was finally strong enough to want a divorce and wasn't going to be weak enough to get back into our R.
What she said was pretty hurtful but true on her part. I know she is hurt and doesn't trust my words.
I know I can look at this two ways: 1) she is really done and will never want to be in a M with me again.
2) she is so hurt from the years of selfish behavior on my part and it will take some time and consistancy on my part to show her that I can be more like the guy she married and less like the guy she divorced.
I am not stupid enough to think that 5 years of ignorant behavior could be reverse with a week of making the bed and doing the dishes.
I guess I need advice on how to procceed from some vets who have been through this part. Do I just keep my head on straight and stay positive?
I assume that this is the point where alot of the real work and patience begins.
