Sorry Mila I cant offer more comforting words to you today....sometimes there is nothing anyone can say. You just have to deal with it the best you can.
I know each time my H came back it werent as exciting as before, actually it was more stressful for me...always anticipating him leaving again. I would often think I was in better moods with him not there anyway. I hated walking on eggshells
Hoping your day gets better.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10