Friday night she again started texted me. Some bogus crap about looking for phone numbers to organize her brothers birthday party. I made the mistake of replying which lead to another string of 70 texts. Same as before. She never wanted to be here, why didn't I just give her what she said she needed, its my fault she left and cheated....
I've been to IC twice now and its been really good. We spent the majority of the time talking about setting and enforcing healthy boundaries. Its funny because I work in Law Enforcement and she is the only person in my life that I have allowed to walk all over me. Its not in my nature. I can related to OIN though, I have acted alot as he has in the past.
I went out two weekends ago to a local bar and has some success meeting women. This past weekend I went to my step-brothers wedding and had some success there as well. I'm not big on external validation but it is good to know that there are options.
So I'm kind of at a empass, I don't know really where to go from here. Its clear she still accepts no responsibilty for her behavior and thinks its my fault she's a chronic cheater. I know that only i can decide whether I want this woman back in my life ever again, and I'm not sure now, but I really don't know what the next step in DBing would be.
