Not Sure Where I Am

[RedHeadWife]

I just still feel like I'm not good enough for him. That he chose to cheat (numerous times) and I have to work really hard to keep up w/ what is "good enough" whatever that may be. I know that is ridiculous, but that's just how I feel. I lost a lot of self-respect during the whole D sitch & haven't gotten it back.

Thanks for responding June. I'm going to go check out your sitch.

I know I need to talk to him. Maybe the time will be right this evening after the boys go to bed. Last night he said he was exhausted & went to bed (the first night since sleeping w/ our son) and nothing happened. We haven't had S in about a week or so, so I thought he would be chomping at the bit. It's not like him to not want S or seem to be at all interested in whether it happens or not. I just don't understand this. Of course there could be someone else, but I'm not getting the gut feeling that there is. I almost just feel like he's not attracted to me anymore or something along those lines.