I need help in the biggest way. I feel so helpless

[timehealsall]

Thanks PG. It's like I'm just angry more than anything. I haven't shed a tear in a long time and I am just like whatever.I don't even cry when I think of myself without him. I waited a long time to get to this point. To a point where i could be somewhat not clinging to his every move or word.

I do want things to work BUT I won't do all the work and I won't put up with bullsh!t from him.

I guess I'm also thinking about mothers day. I'd like for all of us (all the moms) to be together and I am pretty certain that if I tell him I want my mom and sister included, he will say no and that if I want to be with them to do that.

Meanwhile, his mom is made a fuss about wanting us to go visit her (out of state) and we told her that right now is a bad time. So she has H and his sister trying to please her to the point that they are getting her a ticket to fly here for
mothers day. It just pisses me off I guess. Considering my family has always been so good to him and he could want nothing to do
with them and yet his mother has been such a thorn in our side and he is doing what he can and meanwhile I'm sure I'll get nothing for MD. Does that make sense? I feel bitter.

I know I shouldn't expect anything but I still feel.

He was a bit of a jerk last night. I was speaking to him and I tried to bust his chops that he is a snob because he wanted me to reserve him a car to
pick him up (I'm working and can't get him and he refuses to wait) and he got snotty with me that i keep throwing jabs at him. Why can't I joke with him? He does it to me all the time?! So he ended the convo and hung up. Haven't spoken to him since. I don't want the bullshit. I really don't.