She Say's She Want's Out Of The Marriage

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I told her this morning that we needed a few minutes to speak sooner rather than later because she had one. I got into the shower and she came and asked me what I meant. I told her I wasn't going to live like this.

I said it was clear she didn't want to be with me nor did she have any intentions of fixing this. I told her I didn't like her closing the bedroom door and locking it like I was some kind of monster.

I told her she either needed to leave or do what she feels she has to do because I have too much respect for myself to live this way.

She told me I forced her to do something she wasn't ready for. I told her I never forced her to do anything. Keep in mind that I never asked her to come home, she did so from her own guilt. She told me it was up to me to shut my D15 down when she said the things she said.

i told her that's what I have been doing, but she's old enough and she's not stupid. I told her that D15 feelings were from what she sees not what she hears.

I don't know what her expectations are from me, but I'm better than to live like this. It's not fair to anyone to have her be fake. It's making me very uncomfortable, and at this point I'm ready to move in a different direction. I'm not saying I want a D, but I can't be treated like this that's for dang sure.

I know one thing, I won't be leaving. I will not have my kids see me as the one abandoning them. I welcome her back into the home, but when she's ready not when she's acting like this. It's great for D4 to have her here, but even D15 is uncomfortable.