still separated, in limbo, still hopeful

[newmama]

Thank you for stopping by, Mystik! And of course thanks always for your support CW, Piano, and Gatsby!

Ok so today's drop off (yes I will be posting about this until it becomes regulated): I met WH in the parking lot. I wasn't sure how I would act but I think he is matching his mood with mine. So I just said Hi. and was unbuckling S. He said he was meaning to ask me something...had I heard from the daycare? I told him I was waiting for a little longer before I followed up since I had been pestering but will be looking into other daycares as well. Then he asked me what time he should bring him back. (!! Did he not remember the schedule that we wrote out???)

I think it is his passive-aggressive way of implying something though. I did say that we arranged 9 p.m. but that was mostly for his benefit so he could see S longer. But that I had noticed the latest I have been able to keep S awake has been 8:15.

So WH said he would load him in the car around 8:15 because he does start to fall asleep in the car.

And then I got in my car and look over and see WH holding S, waving goodbye to me.

Then tonight I didn't work out!!! SHAME ON ME! But my best friend's H was out of town so she had unlimited talk time (in between putting kids to bed) so we talked for a couple hours! I didn't over eat so I am pretty sure I will still lose weight this week, especially since tomorrow and Wed I plan to work out again.

I was tempted to do my hair and make up to make it look like I went out but then I remembered- who cares? I do have real plans so when I really have something, I will. (I have another theory too)

OK well when WH just arrived to drop off S I was wondering how he would be. I met them in the doorway, while talking to my friend on the phone and said goodbye to her, then said goodnight to S. WH put him in his crib, came back down and gave me a fast recap of what he ate. I said something back. Then he got his mail that I laid out for him and said "see you tomorrow." I said ok, bye.

I was standind with my arms crossed. There wasn't anything rude about how I acted and I wasn't too friendly either...just brief and to the point. I was wearing a tank top and PJ bottoms that show off my weight loss and tan! lol!