Stages of MLC?

[old theotherhalf]

Annabelle,
I know that I am 100% better today than I was 2-3 years ago. Sometimes I feel like I haven't moved on at all. Then others I feel I've made leaps and bounds. Alot of the time on the outside, what people see, I'm doing wonderful. People tell me all the time. It's what people don't see...

Thank you for saying your proud. Everyone can use one of those sometimes.

I still in my heart and mind am a mess. I miss this man so very much. I worry about him. I'm angry at him. I hate him, I hate OW. I feel sorry for him, because I know how he is hurting. I miss soooo very much. My life today is not where I want to be.

I do good most of the time keeping this hidden. Then he called/text...then I seen him at the wedding.
A little dejavue....D18, her BF and I were seated in a pew at the wedding XH came in and we thought went back out. Then we noticed he was sitting on the other end of our pew. Three people in between D and H. After the wedding ushers starting letting people out one pew at a time. People in between D and X did not wait they left early. So when we were ushered out it was X, D, BF, and I. How's that for fate? Just like a family again.

This is all so hard to get over and get on with. If only....