I need help in the biggest way. I feel so helpless

[TimeHeals]

But is it normal to feel this way? I feel like part of
me is so over it. Like I waited almost 9 months for
him to get to this point and now that he is there, its like
I wanna tell him to buzz off. I don't know why I'm feeling like this.

If it's not normal, then I am not normal.