ended up having to ask my H via text message if he could leave the bar he was at.
Why?
Maybe seeing you would make him jealous. Maybe not. I really believe you are strong enough. You ended off crying over it, so having him leave didn't help.
I may have got this wrong, but in a way, it is kind of like bullying - "I'm coming so you need to go". It is his life, and you have yours. Whether your work it out or not, do you want to feel that pain each time you see him.
Reverse rolls, would you be writing 'how could he tell me to leave?'
It hurts to have hope so close, but no one seems to be able to touch it. Don't run your life scared of the beauty you two once shared.
