I've been gone for a few days from here, but it was just a matter of logistics and circumstances. I have loved working to make people smile. It's not that it hasn't always felt good, but when you are purposeful in having a positive impact on someone the rewards seem greater. It has felt great to allow others to bring me up and not just focus on H bringing me down. I am around people all day long so there is no shortage of targets.
Now, I will try to tackle #1. It has been challenging getting on here for long enough to do much. I am limited to times when kids are asleep, or otherwise occupied, and H is not home. I don't have access to a laptop for personal use, just our desktop at home. I tried the local library, but all the computers face the outer walls so everyone in the room can see your screen. Our family is too known around here for that to work. I will keep working to figure this out. I may be sending H on some errands. That would be a 180 of sorts since typically I have always lobbied for him to be home more.
I am pretty let down that H missed my birthday last week. I wasn't really expecting anything spectacular, but completely missing it still stings. He was gone all day as is his schedule for that day of the week. I knew I was on my own with the kids. I actually bought a gift card for H to give to S8 so that the boys could "take me out to dinner"-we had a really fun time and they were so proud to treat me. Then we stopped at a grocery store and bought a little cake to enjoy at home. I keep my fake smile on while everyone who hears about the kids taking me out compliments him on such a thoughtful plan!
