Its over according to her. Rollercoaster continue

[ninelives]

Hey Guys:

Been really busy these days so not much time to post. There was some confusion from my earlier post. I DO NOT talk to my w's friends about the sitch. Their husbands are telling me. They also say that even though they are good friends with my w, they think she is making a big mistake and want to see us back together. So I am NOT pressing them for info or being girly.
(Not that there's anything wrong with that, a person's sexual preference is their own business)

I went to another conference and made a number of connections with collegues I haven't seen for a year. Becaue I have lost 40lbs and cut my hair a little , evidently I look like a new man and was approached by a collegue to get together. Good for the ego. I did have a mild flirtatious, highschool petting type rendevous the other day and Man is that wierd. Feels like I am cheating.

Still want w back but the pain seems to be fleeting. As I said, very busy planning a track meet for our highschool district where i am the Meet director and also taking care of the final details of our sep agreememt and purchaced a Motorcycle. A susuki Gs 500 and enrolled in the course on May 28 ( her birthday)- till May 30 ( my birthday)

Also , cute peron in my town has called and is interested in getting together for drinks. She is 35 and I will be 46.

Hard to believe that I was soooo down and out a few months ago.

She called about the sep. for a few more details before signing and she has bought a different house.

I said well done, time to move on and she said " IF thats what you want" I just shook my head and really wonder what goes on in that pretty little head of hers. I said " You really don' know what you want do you?" " She said, No, that she changes her mind every week" Lost of people around town have told me that she looks haggard and worn out and contiunes to lose weight.

Oh well, I KNOW i will be OK no matter what.

Thans for all the support I have gotten from you all. It really helped me get throught this rough patch. Cant say its all green grass now and like I said , I still think I want her back and want it to work but if not , I believe she will be the one to beat her head against the wall down the road."