Things are continuing to get better on the homefront. My W and I actually talk and joke around quite a bit. She's looking at me in the eyes when we talk and she asks how things are with me.
There are times that she gets lost in thought or gets into her "sad" moods. According to my oldest, my W is tired often and doesn't eat much. Probably from her depression, but I don't say anything.
One thing I did do, that before I would have thought of it as a backslide, was to call her out on behavior that I thought was rude.
Last week, I mentioned to her that our D's eczema flares up badly when she starts crying for my W. So I checked with the pediatrician and they said it was basically all stress induced. I was telling my W so that she would be aware.
She snapped back with "well what do you expect me to do? come back home and bite the bullet?"
I told her that 1) I was just telling her so that she would be aware of it since the pediatrician said it was a bad problem. and that 2) I didn't appreciate her saying that if she came home she'd be "biting the bullet" when I have no idea why she left in the first place and as far as I could tell, everything between us was getting better. I told her that if something were bothering her, I would appreciate it if she would tell me so that there would be no miscommunicating between us. I mentioned that whether or not she opens up, is her decision, but the kids and I were not going to be impacted by them.
She opened up a bit more and then we went back to having a nice conversation.
So all in all it's been good.
Then we talked about other things and she was fine as if the conversation never happened.
Weird, but oh well.
I invited her for a brunch on Mother's Day and she said she'd be happy to come. So I think it will be another good time together.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.