still separated, in limbo, still hopeful

[newmama]

let me explain--if I am available, he is remorseful and willing to do anything I need--then 3 years from now who knows...

just saw this from Robx's thread:

crisis & fear of loss motivates people to action,
it's a little sad that this is usually the only thing that motivates people to move to action but when you accept reality for what it is, you have to accept human nature for what it is and when you can just accept it instead of trying to rationalize it with your morals and ethics, you will find just as I have found in my own situation that fighting reality moves you backwards, not forwards so just accept reality and use it, reality works because it's reality and everything else isn't

this is where I am at. no more fighting for the M, no more hoping. I will continue the new course and whatever happens, happens! These next few months and year will be putting WH into crisis because he will get to see the consequences of his decision- no more house, interruption of life with OW to make room for S, no more communication with me, explaining his version of why he divorced me and how he is suddenly with OW, experiencing more pressure from her for a commitment, feeling guilt over disrupting S' life and taking my family from me, etc.