2 years later it's still not getting easier

[whitneypinch]

Thanks sooo much for thinking about me and my day on Saturday.

Ahhhh..I too have been dealing with the emotional roller coaster. Lately I have been really bitter. I tried so hard to be happy when I saw my ex and I was. Then I started to get resentful watching her interacting with all the other parents. She is very happy now. I overheard her telling one of the parents all the stuff our daughter is into now and all that she does with our daughter. It's like I have been completely erased.

At one point I was watching my son play a game and my ex came over and stood next to me and watched. I wanted to tell her "why are you standing here when you are not wanted here" but I didn't.

I could tell my ex was picking up my coldness and then she started to get cold to me. At the end she said bye to each of my kids and turned and walked away. Did not say bye to me. I felt like yelling you #X@!!! you were the one that abandoned our marriage and destroyed our family, how dare you give me attitude.

Now, on a positive note. I saw a very attractive mother at the fair. I asked my 7 year old daughter who that was. My cute daughter said "daddy, that's Cole's mom and Cole does not have a daddy, you should go over and say hi to her".
So... I got up all the courage I could and went over and introduced myself and told her what my daughter said.
So......hmmmm....I kind of like this woman. This is the first time in over 2.5 years I have felt anything for anyone else.

Damn, my ex just called and I let it go to voicemail. She asked that I give her a call.
I am NOT going to. I will send her an email in a few hours.
Not very happy right now !!!

[censored], she is calling again !!!!!