Journalling: It's Monday again--I don't know WHY I'm surprised when he has a big blowout, but of course here I am caught off guard once again. (Mondays are his normal "blow up" day)
H went off--and I calmly gathered my stuff, told him my "script", and all he yelled as I left was "Don't take my van".lol. I NEVER take his van--guess he had to say SOMETHING.lol. But it wasn't the usual string of obscenities--so it is slowly working!
Left the house and was early for the counseling at the church. I met with a H and W team, they were very sweet--pretty good from what I could tell--but it's rather early to know for sure if they will be much help. Had a couple of book titles for me to look into and I will meet again in 3 weeks when they get back from vacation. They recommended that I laugh when my H makes one of his outrageous statements--I usually am so busy trying to "make it happen" or "understand his POV" that it isn't until later I can see how completely nuts it is and find the humor.
Just for example: My H this a.m. was looking at the finances and wanted to take all the money out of this one account that I pay bills with and leave only $1600 to pay bills the rest of the month and put the rest in savings (H LOVES to put $ in savings).
I told this to the counselors and they immediately started laughing. Then it occurred to me (I had been busy trying to figure out how I could juggle things around so it COULD happen) that, um, yeah--it's freaking hysterical!!
Do I need more detachment? I thought I was doing so good!
