Maybe my only resort is to give up hope. To just go on and make decisions regarding the baby alone, even if I hurt H and myself by doing so. I dont want a friend out of H. I dont need friends. I dont think he is a good friend. Friends dont lie and leave.
Maybe I have no choice but to do this alone. He says I dont, that he would be there for all baby things 100%, but I dont have stregnth to carry him anymore. He should grow up and stand up for what he wants.
