Thanks guys. True, I guess I better get my own signature line tatooed on my hand so I can remember it. I still feel like crap today. I think part of is that I really thought he had reconnected more with me in that he could step towards me more. But I am obviously wrong.
Another thing is that the whole OW question is something I have always gone by my gut. I am quite sure there was one, then it seemed like not anymore, and then now my imagination is running wild and my gut doesn't know what to think. No real reason to think that but who knows. I am tired of it being a question but realize I couldn't do anything about it anyway.
I spent my waking hours (of which there were many) praying and praying.
In the light of day, I look back and realized that toward the end of the conversation he did even joke around a bit. I am trying to look at all the positives that have been happening lately but am stuck on this for now.
