feel like giving up - pt 2

[luvless]

Shel - tell me about it..of course you are allowed to comment. I think "dooshiness" is too mild of a word. Everyone keeps telling me I'm doing ok - it doesnt feel like it lol.

Geo - I believe my H is seeing ow too that's why he's been so nasty to me. He has someone egging him on and boosting his really ugly ego. It is like I never mattered..I feel so betrayed. I could never see myself behaving the way he has if the sitch was reversed. I know what you mean about the people here...a great support system.

I have so much to do and I don't want to do any of it.

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[beingreal]

((((((luvley)))))

I'm so feeling for you right now. I figured I was allowed to comment--I just meant in such a negative manner. lol I have some much more abrasive terms to hurl in his direction if you'd like. It might make you feel better just to scream at him a bit. Just as long as he doesn't hear you.

You are doing okay--even if you don't feel like it, you are. Just keep faking it, right? Keeping acting strong & pretty soon you'll feel it. I mean if he's just being an asshat, then don't let him know that you actually care. On the other hand if he is *intentionally* trying to hurt you--then don't give him the satisfaction of seeing you crumble.

I want a T-shirt that has my (now) favorite saying on it...

This Princess Saves Herself


If he wants to act like the big tough guy who totally cuts his wife and children off with no warning whatsoever, then fine. He needs to be able to handle the pissed off warrior princess who was disguised as his sweet & loving wife. How did he expect you to react? What did he think you were going to do?


Of course you don't even have to show up to the battle to win the war. The best revenge is sometimes just living the best life you can after him. Live your life as though his walking away will have had no affect on you. A life that is just as good without him as it ever was with him. A life that no longer has room for him.


Go ahead, Luv...get all Xena on him.

[flowmom]

(((Luv))) it's hard to believe your H's actions . It's a lot for you to endure. Try to keep the focus on you and your children.

[Geomom]

Definitely, Luv, I understand wanting to bury yourself under the bed covers and never come out again. And I know what you mean about the "egging on" -- I've heard expressions come out of my H's mouth recently that I've never heard from him before. (Things like, "I'm not hard to figure out" and "If we talk to someone (ie, MC), I'm afraid your fangs will come out.") Nasty stuff, some of it.

It's times like these that kids can be an especially good thing, as they force you to keep going for their sakes. Gives me a whole new perspective on what my Mom went through when I was 2 and my Dad died suddenly. When things like that happen, it really helps to have a reason to get out of bed every morning.

[luvless]

Thanks girls - I appreciate your posts. Shel - I love that princess saying and I'm getting a shirt asap.

I was trying really hard today to not get down but damn if it's not getting to me. I'm feeling so sad right now.

My older son said he talked to dad today and he said it was a low blow to be served those papers. I am in awe because this is what HE wanted not me why would he be upset about getting something he asked for? He told my son that now he has to get a place because he can't come back to the house etc. (he was served an order to vacate marital home) so he is offended.

I don't get it. This man takes off his wedding ring...tells me he doesn't love me and has been threatening me to leave for months and he's offended? I just don't understand

Everyone here knows divorce was the last thing I wanted but then again I haven't gotten ANYTHING I've wanted in this relationship for 6 months now!

I'm upset. I feel so mad at myself for feeling bad for my soon to be X. I am sure he doesn't feel bad about me...wow this still hurts like heck.

Calgon take me away....

[LSG]

luv,

Hang in there. You are doing great! Don't even pay attention to what he says. Easier said than done I know.

[mindfull]

T - Let's talk tomorrow. BIG HUG NICE DREAMS! LOL

[luvless]

Hugs to you LSG and Mind...

I spent the whole day doing for me. I first went to starbucks to have coffee and do some reading of the sunday paper and laptop stuff. It was relaxing. I felt empty even though I was enjoying myself.

I spent a lot of time in my backyard today. I had a couple drinks and sat by the pool then just relaxed in the water. I listened to music and felt ok but I tell you as much as I try to feel single and free I just feel alone and lost.

This week is going to be rough.

Luv

[flowmom]

It's great that you're taking time for yourself Luv. Your actions will help to draw you towards feeling better, but I know that right now it's very hard.

take care...

[luvless]

good morning

It's a busy morning for me. I've got so many things to do. I have to pack up Mr. Luv's things. It's going to be very hard for me. I just keep thinking how this is such a waste.

I hope everyone has a good day.

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