SA, CW, Libby, HB & kissak Thank you all for your kind words and encouragement.
I feel good about how I acted towards H yesterday. I SENSE that he is struggling with what to do...and my intuition told me to "step it up". To show him my love little bit more obviously. Before I was taking clues from him...like waiting for him to kiss me goodnight etc.
Yesterday I put my love for him right under his nose...he can't be mistaken about how I feel about him and that I'm believing his word that he wants to R.
I was really hoping that this time he was ready to "find his way home". Now I personally think that he will choose the OW again...the addiction is still to strong, but at least he should leave with as many doubts as possible.
Kissak - What you are describing is very similar to what I'm going through with my H.
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I would always know that the OW would win until she was out of the pic. Everytime she did.
I have a feeling that he will go another round with OW. He is looking for a "quick fix" or instant happiness if you will and he thinks that the OW is IT.
BTW just found out that he told D three weeks ago that it's over with OW (I remember asking him not to tell her until he is sure). She said that when he was driving her the other day he kept texting - while driving (great example for D), she asked him who he is texting with and he said just a friend, she said who? and said you don't know them. She said that he acted weird and that she was sure it was OW. D is just rolling her eyes at what he does.
We are having a meeting later, I'm curious to see if he tells me anything.
M53 H54 D17 M33Y T38Y Bomb OW 09/09 OUT 10/09 BACK 11/09 OUT 01/10 WANTS TO R 04/10 BACK with OW 05/10 Wants to Reconcile 05/11 I said NO
