Okay, so I probably screwed up pretty big. Last night after everyone was in bed I was just sad . . . so lonely and tired of sleeping without my H there. I went into the bathroom to have a good cry and I guess due to the vents in the house he heard me and came up to see if I was okay.
I decided to take a gamble and go with the truth since he did come up. I told him I wasn't okay and that I was lonely. He referenced a friend who I had just talked to on the phone earlier and I said that is not who I missed. He knew that anyway I am sure. The conversation wasn't really horrible except that he didn't say much of anything. His jaw was twitching. I asked him what he was thinking and he said he wasn't going to say anything so late at night (wow, that does't sound good).
At one point he said he was sorry for being the cause of all my troubles. At that point I didn't say anything.
Anyway, he did give me a hug before he went back down but I feel so awful and terrible today. I slept two hours last night if that. I am all worked up to the point of not being able to keep food down.
