Not sure which way to go anymore

[Mystik]

Went to my sister's to have cake and ice cream for my mom's birthday and left my phone at home. Had two texts from H when I got home, the first one saying to call him, he misses DS and wanted to see him. The second one was an hour later saying he was getting DS from school tomorrow. I had DS call him and left the room, waited until DS was done talking to return. DS said H wants me to call him but I'm just not ready. I know he's only going to yell at me for not answering his call his morning or answering his texts. Just hearing his voice gets my stomach all worked up from anxiety. So much for going dark until Wednesday.

I want him to miss DS, I want him to realize what he's walking away from, what he's throwing away for his tramp and the baby she tricked him into. He needs to realize that by leaving he is giving up open access to our son, that it will be scheduled when and for how long he gets DS, no more coming and going as he pleases.

Not sure what to do about tomorrow. Be a b!tch and say no, or let him go because I have nothing planned and I know DS will enjoy it?