NM, i have to disagree, H does NOT live me. Love would never let someone treat someone else this way. As for him being 100% not in sons life, I agree. But H doesnt get that!??!?!?!?
He says over and over, me and you have nothing to do with the baby! and said I didnt leave my son, i left you. Today was a really crappy day. Have birthing classes set up next week, wondering how strange it would be if I went alone? Will ask my doc this week. Or i may cancel them altogether.
I am so sad bc im starting to realize that I dont have a strong desire for baby to be born yet... actually wish I was pregnant for 15 more months... is that horrible to say? It upsets me bc if H was here I think I would be the mushiest and most loving PG mommy. I just feel awful and so self absorbed! and I dont put the baby first like I should be. And that got me thinking, if I feel that way, and I am carrying him, no wonder H doesnt feel a thing!
I read your threads today... we have so many similarities its scarry! Have to read the infedility forum.
I feel like there is no hope. Not one ounce. How many times do I need to hear that he doesnt love me for it to sink in?
