Ooooh, I am not so sure what I should or shouldn't be doing. I'm pretty sure what I want to do is wrong and shouldn't do it. I wish more than anything my h would come home and I could help him to see he is a great person worthy of me. He still the other night (when we were suppose to sign the d papers) told me he wasn't sure why I would want to be with someone like him. Well, I still think that he is a great person, who has made some bad choices, but still a good person. He of course does not think this of himself. He is just so down and depressed looking.
Our friend who's wife and he are having a baby stopped by my h's work the other night. He told my h that they were having a baby. I guess my h was really excited for them and my friend said it was like talking to the regular h we all know and love. In the past our friend has said he just wants to beat my h up and give him a hug and ask him what he is doing to his life and m.... he said that he couldn't beat him up but was just so glad to see him. He said he misses my h and hopes he gets through this difficult time in his life.... he wishes my h would talk to him.
You can't make someone talk to you is what I told our friend..and you can't make him get help. My h has to want to do this on his own. I am still conflicted on this feeling though. Because my h is so lost and confused, I'm afraid he is alone and thinks no one cares for him. But, I still think he is trying to talk with the ow. I'm just conflicted. Acting as if I am giving up on someone who is depressed can't make someone feel very good. Does that make sense?
M 35, husband 35 M 10 Limbo 9/2009-12/2010 he left for his moms and came home way to many times to count Home 12/2010-present
