Thanks everyone. True, you are so right. I let his illness get to me and now I'm going down with him. In the book and says be careful this doesn't happen but it has with me.
But any suggestions anyone after I texted him what I did...what do I do now...anything? Do I let him know I didn't mean it and that it was just out of anger or do I just let it go?
To everyone else on the board that has been so kind and patient with me, I swear to God I'm not having a pity party. I hate feeling like this, I don't feel sorry for myself, I'm just clinically depressed and they keep changing my meds and this is a hard road to get out of this depression.
Sometimes I feel I pushed H out and do blame myself, so it is not a pity party and I truly want to get better for me and my kids. My friends tell me this is what my H wants to do to me, blame me for everything and you know what he won cause now he has me believing it.
