As you know, I am not in a good place to give advice yet either but you hang in there...go back to what you were doing, detach again (yeah, I know, easier said than done) do for Mila!!!
M48 H53 M16 T18 S16 D13 SS30 H drops bomb PA/8-30-09 H leaves 12-30-09 D filed by H 2-10 H asks to come home 4-11 Piecing