NM, H filed for D this march and I have the papers here... all i have to do is sign. He said he filed bc he was being asked by our families if he was serious or if we had hope, etc. Then i really pissed him off one weeken and days later he filed. Days after our ultrasound. he served me w them when i was in 2 weeks of NC, and was finally getting stregnth.
I dont have a choice in being scared of being alone or a single mom. I cry all of the time, and think raising a boy alone will be a hundred times harder than if I were having a girl. Sorry, i am very exciting about my son, but the fear is true. I havent slept since he left, cant sleep alone. in the end I dont have a choice.
maybe signing the papers will give me closure... as for him... he'd probably be ecstatic. What do i care what he wants. I dont believe in D. I will be divorced before even having a baby...
hard to believe 4 months ago, we were planning for this baby and our future.
i just believe its over. no hope. no going back. Going to speak with the attorney tomorrow.
maybe ending this will stop my heart from beating for him.
