Moving on with my life #2

[Startingover2]

Been off the boards for a few days. Really helps me not think so much. I miss posting here though when something happens or I am in a bad place, but it seems to make me get over it faster.

Exh is still wanting to be around all the time and show me the 'new him'. No, I don't believe it and I keep telling him that. We went to watch his d15's track meet the other day. Just like old times with everyone there. Baby had fun and it was nice to see d15 run. She has so much talent. We sat with his exinlaws and they sort of asked me what was going on...I said nothing, we just came to watch d15. They said exh told them he was sick of his life the way it was, wants his family back and he was working really hard to show me he is different. I laughed and said sounds nice in fantasy, but we have all heard it before.

Exh wants to be around almost every free moment. He cleaned out a shed last week that I didn't want to touch as somehow it got rat infested, he took things away, and made dinner last night for baby and I. He wanted to stay the night, but I smiled and said 'yeah right. not a chance'. He asked us to go to his other daughters track meet today. Can't go anyway, baby had a long night and I am wondering if she isn't feeling well again?

He hasn't had one beer around me at all. I am not nieve (sp) to think that he is reformed but its nice to see him not drinking on the weekends. Not sure what he does when he goes home though. His deal.

I know its wrong to be spending time with exh and most likely it will blow up in my face We have had so many talks though and its refreshing. We never have even talked like this when we were married.

So, today is a relax day. Need to clean my house. The weather is supposed to be beautiful the rest of the week! YEAH! My son's 17th bday is tomorrow. Not fun when all they want is money. Feels so strange to not get a gift. We are going to bbq for him. I know exh got something for him.

Oh, and I am back walking and eating better this week. I am trying not to get on the scale but once a week so I hope it shows a bit of a loss. I need to lose about 25 pounds.