My mind keeps replaying those "clarity" moments ... When his vulnerability showed... It's so hard to keep the "business" side attitude in place... My heart says compassion and hope... But dealing with him now is so difficult because he is a person that would not elicit compassion from anyone right now...
It would be a whole lot less painful and easier if I felt like they did...
It feels like everytime he puts himself before our children's needs it's like another betrayal...
Probably was self protection detachment.... Would have been simpler if it wasn't ...
I'm so tired and confused about how I feel about him...
Don't know if the above made any sense to anyone but me....
~ This Diamond now SHINES!! ;-p ~
My Sitch in MLC - http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Main=45253&Number=1901148#
