Number 8's Revelations, Mistakes, and New Methods

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My New Friend, EIGHT, who should be a TEN!!! (RESPONSE NUMBER 1)

For now, I continue to have my nervous, anxious feeling, but I also feel like there's still some hope.

Honey, alcohol helps a lot w/the nervous, anxious feeling... LOL J/K

I'm jotting notes as I read, so if you cover later in the thread, just swat me!

Anxious and nervous are prevalent when you feel you have no choice in an outcome of a situation. You DO have a choice, TEN...

"It's criminal the way I see it, to have the answers and know the solutions, but be held back by one party...UGH."

Gosh, it appears all I would have needed to do was get naked more often! UGH!

(I need to go back and read Thread ONE - don't understand the WHY H is moved out yet, but having a good time reading w/wine...)

I took very easily to the GAL philosophy (despite the anxiety and internal turmoil). I adopted it and exhibited a positive, upbeat attitude.

Good thing we're not local, because I live it, and it tends to get me in trouble sometimes!

His response: "When you act like that, it's just more of the same."

Ouch! That f'n sucks! HUG

flowmom, it hasn't felt like pursuing because my H has never felt pursued by me. He has felt overlooked and ignored, and he has felt alone.

Ouch! BTDT, and the scars to prove it!

Thanks, kara! I appreciate your support. Have you found methods that work well for you?

Hey, TEN, Kara ROCKS. Read, re-read, highlight, AND bunny-ear her thread. She is one of my all-time faves, and I'm qualified to tell ya...

On a related note, if you have never seen the movie The Money Pit, then please watch it immediately. It will give you an idea of what my life is like right now.

Oh, honey, when you have TEN hours, I'll share our renovation / restoration of a 1911 FLW home... YIKES!

And for the record--I didn't come up with the "WW" for her. She calls herself that! She also signs all her e-mails and cards to my sister-in-law and me like that.

Whacked, just whacked!

flowmom, you don't sound flaky at all! Because of all my home disasters, I've even considered contacting an exorcist (though I'm not even Catholic). I wonder where one would find a Feng Shui consultant? I might have an easier time finding an exorcist.

BTDT - LMAO - Hahahaha LOL I had our pastor come pray over every doorway, corner of each room, etc... Still f'n shitty karma here!

It's good to have the mother of a son providing some input here.

I have two sons. I never want to do less than be an awesome, totally fun, MIL(F)! LOL

He gave me one of those long squeezy hugs, and I just melted right into it and squeezed back (a 180 from what I'd been doing since the separation). I said, "You look great." He responded, "So do you." [This is the first time this has happened since the separation!] He sat and chatted for a good while and then said he would get back to his mother's (exhausted after a long, stressful day). We both stood, and he gave me an even tighter and longer hug. He took a deep breath (smelling my hair? gathering his strength?) as we hugged, and I close-lipped kissed his neck (another 180 for me). He hung on for a few moments longer after this. As he was leaving, he said, "I'll talk to you this weekend."

EIGHT became a TEN in this moment right here, folks...

(total fluff--the new Chelsea Handler book).

Are you there vodka, it's me Chelsea... LMAO - I quote it all the time. LOL LOL LOL