Hope, that is so rough. Keep taking it one day at a time. This pain won't last forever.

I know I've recommended this to you before...but The Work is one of the only things that has helped me with finding oases of peace at the toughest times.

This one would make good listening for you:
http://www.thework-store.com/when-relationships-fail

(((Hope)))

me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4
current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp
.: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.