Definitely, Luv, I understand wanting to bury yourself under the bed covers and never come out again. And I know what you mean about the "egging on" -- I've heard expressions come out of my H's mouth recently that I've never heard from him before. (Things like, "I'm not hard to figure out" and "If we talk to someone (ie, MC), I'm afraid your fangs will come out.") Nasty stuff, some of it.
It's times like these that kids can be an especially good thing, as they force you to keep going for their sakes. Gives me a whole new perspective on what my Mom went through when I was 2 and my Dad died suddenly. When things like that happen, it really helps to have a reason to get out of bed every morning.
H 42 Me 47 DS 7 T 18 M 16 Bomb: 4/20/10 H leaves to live at Mom's: 4/30/20
My sitch: http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1990503#Post1990503